WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST READ??
Sorry for the outburst, but I am so absolutely infuriated right now. No, no, no, no, no. HOW did this book get published?? Why aren’t people LIVID about this chapter? I don’t know how I’m going to write about this. I really don’t, because I am just far, far too angry about it.
When I first flipped through this chapter, I thought, ‘Great, a short chapter; this’ll be easy!’ But no, of course that was too good to be true. This chapter is so much more horrible than I could have imagined. It is straight up fucking abuse, and Meyer tries to make it seem ROMANTIC, which is just…I just…aggh! I can’t even think straight!
It starts with Ian furiously glaring down at Wanda, Kyle and Sunny, and the look is both bad enough to scare Sunny and bad enough that Wanda actually feels like Ian and Kyle have switched faces. But what does she add on to that thought?
“Except Ian’s face was still perfect, unbroken. Beautiful, even though it was enraged.”
WHAT?! He just eavesdropped on a PRIVATE conversation you were having, heard something he didn’t like, and is now looking at you in a way that is TERRIFYING and reminds you of the face of someone who TRIED TO KILL YOU, and you’re thinking about how fucking beautiful and perfect he is? What the fucking hell is wrong with you?? HOW IS THIS NOT GLORIFYING ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIPS? And this is only the beginning!
Kyle asks Ian what’s wrong, but Ian doesn’t respond to him, he just grits his teeth and says Wanda’s name, holding out his hand for her to take. Wanda says it appears as though he’s having a hard time keeping his hand from making a fist as he holds it out, which is always a good fucking sign, and Stryder seems to realize the danger, but Wanda just feels ‘miserable’ because she doesn’t want to say goodbye to Ian and now she has to.
The one good thing here is that she finally does realize that it’s wrong to just slip out without saying goodbye to anyone, but she doesn’t seem to see that Ian isn’t sad or feeling betrayed, he is fucking PISSED, and acting scary already. Maybe it’s because I know there’s worse to come that this bothers me so much, but it bothered me the first time I read it too, so…I dunno.
Because Wanda doesn’t move the second he puts his hand out (she literally had time to think one thought before Ian was “tired of waiting“), Ian grabs her arm and HAULS HER UP FROM THE FLOOR. Sunny hasn’t even had a chance to let go of Wanda yet, the movement is so sudden, so Ian shakes Wanda until Sunny lets go. WHAT THE FUCK.
Kyle asks Ian what’s wrong with him, so Ian fucking KICKS HIM IN THE FACE, because of course THAT was the logical, reasonable thing to do there, because it is allllll Kyle’s fault that Wanda didn’t tell him something that Kyle wouldn’t have even known himself until that moment! Sunny throws herself in front of Kyle to try to shield him from Ian as Kyle tries to stand, which results in her accidentally knocking Kyle back onto the floor, while Ian DRAGS Wanda away from them.
Wanda tries to cry out to Ian, but he pulls her along so roughly that she can’t even speak…which we can tell is fucking horrible, but Wanda says it’s “fine” because she “has no idea what to say“. THAT IS NOT THE POINT, WANDA. Tell him to stop, tell him he shouldn’t have kicked his fucking brother in the face for no reason, tell him to LET YOU GO and STOP DRAGGING YOU, tell him to CALM THE FUCK DOWN FOR A SECOND, tell him he’s scaring you…ANYTHING! The problem is, though, that he’s NOT scaring her, and that’s really the WORST part! She’s totally okay with this! WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF EXAMPLE IS THIS SETTING, MEYER? WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TEACH YOUR READERS??
Wanda says she sees everyone’s startled faces flash by in a blur while she stupidly worries about how Summer feels seeing this violence instead of worrying about what’s going to happen to her (NOT REALISTIC), but why the FUCK isn’t anyone DOING ANYTHING?? He’s dragging her across the floor by her arm, against her will, he just fucking kicked Kyle in the face, and everyone is just standing there watching?? Jeb is there, and though he said he’d dispose of his gun for Summer’s sake, he HASN’T YET, or if he has it’s just sitting in the hall close by; WHY hasn’t he or Jared grabbed that yet and held it to Ian to get him to fucking stop??
At the very least, why hasn’t anyone intervened in any way whatsoever? Why hasn’t Doc gone to Kyle, or ANYONE gone to Wanda to try to get her free from Ian, or gone to Ian to get him to let go of her? This doesn’t make any sense! These people have DEFINITELY moved quicker than this before for lesser reasons; they would NOT all just STAND THERE while Ian did this shit!!
Jared blocks the entrance so Ian can’t leave with Wanda, at least, but all he does is ask Ian ( far too formally; again with the crappy dialogue) what he’s doing to her, which we know damn well is NOT all he would realistically do in this scenario. It may be Wanda that Ian’s after, but Stryder is still in that body, and there is no way in hell Jared would let her be treated that way. He’d have all out attacked Ian by now.
Ian shoves Wanda in front of him and shakes her at Jared, asking Jared if he knew about ‘this’, which Jared ignores, yelling at Ian that he’s going to hurt her. Ian asks if Jared knows what Wanda is planning, but again Jared doesn’t answer, so Ian takes that to mean that Jared does know, and punches him in the face. PUNCHES HIM IN THE FACE. He has now physically injured TWO people, and NO ONE IS DOING ANYTHING ABOUT THIS, and we’re supposed to think he’s completely justified in doing this because he’s upset about Wanda’s plan.
Why isn’t Wanda upset about him punching Jared?? She begs him to stop, but he just says “You stop” (FUCK YOU) and pulls her into the tunnel, almost running down the hallway with her as Jared calls out to him. After that, Wanda doesn’t seem to think of Jared again, which she certainly should have if she cares about him so much…and Stryder definitely should have spoken up here!
“‘O’Shea!’ Jared shouted after us.
‘I’m going to hurt her?’ Ian roared back over his shoulder, not breaking pace. ‘I am? You hypocritical swine!‘”
Ahhh fuck, I hate this. Firstly, Jared JUST GOT PUNCHED IN THE FACE; he would NOT be referring to the person who did that to him by his last name when he usually doesn’t, because now is NOT the time for casual, friendly ‘nicknames’. Secondly, “hypocritical swine“? Seriously, Meyer, who the fuck says that? EVER??
Thirdly, Jared is NOT being hypocritical, because HE is not going to hurt her. Whether he figured out her plan or not (which has neither been confirmed nor denied, and even if it was confirmed, Ian doesn’t know WHY Jared hasn’t said anything about it), JARED is not the one that intends to do anything to Wanda. You said it yourself, Ian; it’s HER plan, not Jared’s, so Jared sure as hell does not deserve your wrath and cannot be blamed for ‘hurting’ her.
Besides which, doing this would be LESS painful for her, emotionally, in the long run! You wouldn’t know that though, because you immediately jumped to whipping her around by her arm, yelling at everyone and punching and kicking people! YOU are the only one that’s currently hurting her, the way you’re dragging and throwing her around! Don’t act like it’s worse if someone else is hurting her (especially since they’re not)!
Ian takes off down the tunnel with Wanda, running so fast she stumbles to keep up, until her moans of pain from the grip he’s got on her arm (she describes it as being as tight as a tourniquet, which is horrible, and I mean either her arm is some fucking small or he’s really holding on THAT tight, if his fingers are overlapping while wrapped around her arm and her arm is going numb…so how can she not be afraid of him at this point?) and the fact that he keeps jerking her along when she already can’t keep up are too distracting for him to let her keep running.
He stops, and she tries to say something to him but she can’t get her breath and doesn’t know what to say besides, because he’s so angry, so he just grabs her and…okay, now I’m confused.
“His arms caught me abruptly, yanking my feet out from under me and then catching my shoulders before I could fall. He started running forward again, carrying me now. His hands were not rough and angry like before; he cradled me against his chest.”
…What? I am trying so hard to picture this, but it’s like the scene with the crumbling floor and the pillar; I just can’t make sense of it. So she’s standing, because she was just running and it did not, at any point, say she sat or fell down, and he…catches her somehow…in a way that pulls her feet out from under her…and then he catches her shoulders and carries her cradled against his chest? Is he supporting her legs, or just holding her out in front of him by the shoulders? But that wouldn’t be cradled…I can’t picture this at all. I don’t know what the fuck is happening. Maybe this is clearer to someone else, but I’m completely lost.
Oh, and I absolutely do not believe that his hands aren’t rough and angry anymore; I think she just can’t tell cause he’s not squeezing all the blood from her this time, so it feels better now than it did before. Low fucking standards for care there.
He runs through the caves, carrying her past all the people that are of course listed because they always are, who are surprised by and suspicious about what he’s doing. Wanda says it disturbs these people to see Ian doing what he is, especially looking as angry as he does, so they go after Ian and try to stop him to find out what’s going on…
Oh wait, no, that doesn’t happen; that’s a different book. You know, a book where this scene makes some fucking semblance of sense. No, in this book, Ian keeps running and no one does fucking anything. Jared and Jeb aren’t pursuing, Kyle isn’t pursuing, and NO ONE that they pass on the way pursues them either, despite that they all have VERY good reasons to, and they’re ALL apparently disturbed by what he’s doing. He just injured TWO PEOPLE, and everyone is just fine with him running off with her in a blind rage? What the hell kind of people are these?
Considering what’s happening, it can be easily assumed that either Ian’s doing something wrong or Wanda is doing/has done something wrong, so they SHOULD be trying to figure out what happened either way! But no, no one does ANYTHING. They all just stay where they are and think, ‘Well fuck, that was weird’. WHAT THE FUCK??? Why isn’t Jared at least doing something about this? She could be killed! Considering how violent Ian’s just been, they have EVERY reason to think he WILL hurt her!
Ian keeps running until he gets to the door of his room, where he KICKS THE FUCKING DOOR IN and drops Wanda onto a mattress on the floor. When the door hits the ground, it is described as making an echoing boom, yet AGAIN, NO ONE COMES TO CHECK AND MAKE SURE EITHER OF THEM IS OKAY. THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT!! There is NOTHING about this chapter that is okay AT ALL!
Ian angrily pulls the door back in place, which would be fucking TERRIFYING to me if I was in Wanda’s position, and then stands above her, glaring at her. She fucking KNEELS before him, holding her hands out in the hope that something will magically happen that will calm him down, and isn’t THIS just fucking indicative of the nature of their relationship. On her knees, willing to give him whatever he wants just because he threw a fit over not getting what he wanted. FUCK THIS BOOK.
“‘You. Are. Not. Leaving. Me.’”
WOW. Fucking WOW! He actually fucking SAID that! This is the kind of shit psychotic exes say before they rape and kill a girl; this is NOT something that someone who LOVES you will EVER say! You do not INTIMIDATE and SCARE people into staying with you! This is seriously fucking psychotic, and Meyer is playing it off as a reasonable way for Ian to behave! HOW CAN YOU PROMOTE THIS SHIT, MEYER?! It’s fucking TERRIFYING!! How can you sleep at night knowing you may set young girls up to be treated like this??
Wanda sheepishly tells him that he has to see that she can’t stay, but he yells at her again, which makes her cringe. At that, Ian collapses to his knees and buries his head in Wanda’s stomach, ‘locking’ his arms around her waist, and begins to sob. This guy has some SERIOUS fucking issues if all of this is how he reacts to even the vague MENTION of something he doesn’t like. I’m absolutely willing to bet that if he ever had a girlfriend before Wanda, she’s fucking dead now for trying to break up with him. He clearly cannot handle people leaving him. This is INCREDIBLY fucked up.
Wanda begs him not to cry, because apparently crying is ‘so much worse‘ than his anger, which is another fucking GREAT message, Meyer; THANKS for that. If he found out she was going to do this and broke down crying and begged her to stay, that would be one thing; I might even have sympathy for him DESPITE all the creepy ass crap he did before…but to INJURE people, INCLUDING HER, lose his shit entirely, DEMAND that she not leave him and then have a complete fucking breakdown…no! This is NOT acceptable behaviour, he needs SERIOUS mental help/counselling, and Meyer should NOT be spreading a message that showing sadness and heartbreak is WORSE than BEING FUCKING ABUSIVE AND INCAPABLE OF CONTROLLING YOUR ANGER. FUUUUUCCCCKKKK!!!!!!!!!
Wanda continues to beg him, then FUCKING APOLOGIZES TO HIM, after how HE acted, as she begins to cry too. He tells her she can’t leave, but she says she has to, and then they cry for a long time, and THIS is what SHOULD have happened at the beginning, not any of that other fucking bullshit!
Ian eventually stops crying and pulls Wanda into his arms, and when Wanda stops crying too, he apologizes for being ‘mean’. MEAN? You think that ‘mean’ is an accurate description of what you were? Again, you were fucking PSYCHOTIC! You were not mean, you were ABUSIVE and TERRIFYING! There is a BIG difference!
But what does Wanda do? SHE APOLOGIZES RIGHT BACK. Because THAT is what we should teach girls to do when someone acts like this toward them. Don’t run away, don’t get help, don’t hide, don’t defend yourself, no, APOLOGIZE to the person who abuses you and makes you fear for your life (or at least WOULD if you were a normal person who reacted to these situations with half a brain cell). I know she’s apologizing for not telling him because she should have, which YES, I agree with, because she should have and it WAS selfish not to, as she says, but this is NOT the time to be apologizing for that! His actions went FAR beyond yours, Wanda!
This seems fitting.
He tells her they need to talk about it because it can’t be a done deal, but she says it is, so he asks how long she’s been planning it. She tells him since the Seeker, and he nods, suddenly figuring out everything. He says he understands why she thought she had to give her secret to save the Seeker, but Doc knowing how to perform removals doesn’t mean she has to leave. He says if he’d thought for one minute that it did mean that, he never would have let her show Doc how to do the procedure, and then the brief moment of calmness from Ian is over, as he starts yelling again.
He says no one is going to force her to have it done, and that he’ll break Doc’s hands if he tries to touch her, which I’m SURE Meyer thought was a romantic thing for him to say, but when that becomes what’s truly considered romantic, I’ll be officially fucking done with society and probably go on a killing spree. He has NO control over his rage, at all, and he really fucking needs to get some.
He yells that no one can make her do it, so she tells him that no one is making her do it (thank fuck she finally admitted that so she can stop talking about how she ‘has to’ do it), and explains that she didn’t show Doc how to do the procedure to save the Seeker, she did it to save Stryder; the Seeker’s being there just made her have to decide to do it sooner. Again, this is fucking bullshit. She clearly had no intentions at all of doing this before the Seeker. I get what Meyer is trying to make us believe here, but no. There should have been SOME indication beforehand.
Ian gets even more angry at the mention of saving Stryder, which is again fucking scary, so Wanda goes on to explain how Stryder is trapped, telling him that it’s worse than prison for her because she’s like a ghost. She says she can free Stryder and give her herself back, so Ian argues that she (Wanda) deserves a life too, but Wanda says she loves Stryder. Yep, you really love her. It was really obvious, all those times you were a bitch to her and fucked her over. And this is still not about her, it’s about your guilt, so again, fuck off.
Ian tells Wanda that he loves her, and asks if that matters, which she says it does, but that only makes it more necessary. He takes that the wrong way and asks if it’s so unbearable to have him love her, which it FUCKING SHOULD BE GIVEN ALL OF THIS CRAP, and then says that if it is, he can keep his mouth shut about loving her so she can go be with Jared if she wants, but he just wants her to stay.
Yeah fucking right, Ian. Not buying it, given your previous comment when she told you to stop kissing her and you didn’t; remember how that time you said you would have the rest of your lives together and that you would change her mind on Jared instead of respecting her wishes? You never fucked off before when she wanted you to, so you sure as hell wouldn’t fuck off now.
Wanda doesn’t see that, so she’ll go right ahead and buy your bullshit and think you’re sooooo sweet and selfless, and that you love her soooo much, but in reality, I know you still just want to fucking bone her, and you will NOT give up if she stays. There is NO way. Even if she begged and pleaded, you would never leave her the fuck alone, and this chapter just proves it. YOU HAVE FUCKING PROBLEMS.
Oh, and this is YET ANOTHER TIME when Meyer is giving her readers some wonderful fucking lessons. SO FUCKING GLAD YOUNG GIRLS READ THESE BOOKS. This is not AT ALL a contributing factor to why teenagers have such COMPLETELY FUCKED UP relationships nowadays, is it? Maybe if they weren’t constantly reading crap like this that makes abusive, manipulative, creepy, stalking behaviour from partners seem ROMANTIC, girls would stop staying when men treat them that way., and actively SEEKING OUT partners like that!
Wanda of course can’t stand that Ian thinks she thinks it’s unbearable to have him love her, because POOR FUCKING MANIPULATIVE JACKASS, so she cradles his head in her hands and tells him that that’s not it. She says she loves him too, which makes my fucking skin crawl, and then explains that it’s her that loves him, meaning the silver worm in the back of her head, but her body doesn’t and it never can, so it pulls her in two. She says it’s unbearable, but she seemed to bear it pretty well before by just not associating with Jared at all. Didn’t even seem like Stryder was getting in the way of Wanda being with Ian, despite not liking it.
When the hell did Wanda fall so deeply in love with Ian, anyway?! I know we’re supposed to believe she did, though it never really made sense to me, but how the hell did it become so involved that she’s not just willing to put up with abuse from him, she DOESN’T EVEN SEEM TO SEE THAT IT IS ABUSE??
No, Ian, you don’t.
This is not love! I repeat, to all Meyer’s readers: THIS. IS. NOT. LOVE!!! Someone who loves you WILL NOT treat you this way, and staying with someone when they DO do this is ALSO not love! Especially not if you’re acting like it’s fucking OKAY for them to do these things to you! Not once does Wanda seem to think Ian is out of line, not once does she cry out for help, not once does she do anything other than take blame and try to make HIM feel better! I get it, he’s upset, but that is NO FUCKING EXCUSE for acting like this! DO NOT LET PEOPLE TREAT YOU THIS WAY, PEOPLE!
“I could have borne it. But watching him suffer because of my body’s limitations? Not that.”
Ohhhh, so it’s unbearable because she doesn’t want to hurt HIM, not because it’s unbearable for HER, so she must REALLY love him, right? It’s really a VERY strong priority for her. Fuck that. And fuck you, Meyer.
I’m sorry for all the swearing; I’m pretty sure it’s obvious how much it bothers me when people romanticize bad and abusive relationships, and that’s all this chapter is, so it’s a bit hard to control.
Wanda watches Ian’s eyelashes glisten with tears, so Stryder tells her to go ahead and do whatever she needs to do, saying that she’ll “just step into the other room“. What? The first time Stryder says ANYTHING and it’s not fearful of Ian, it’s not upset because of the two people he injured, ONE OF WHICH WAS THE MAN SHE LOVES, it’s not about any of the rest of this crap, it’s ALLOWING Wanda to be physical with Ian. WHY?!? Why would she EVER do that??
Wanda is putting HER (Stryder’s) body at risk letting Ian treat her this way, and Stryder SHOULD be fucking PISSED about what Ian has done, but instead she’s letting Wanda do MORE that is uncomfortable and horrible for her! Seriously, what the hell kind of messages are these to send to young readers??
Wanda thanks Stryder and kisses Ian, which leads to them making out for a bit and something ‘changing’ inside Wanda. Oh fucking great. Wanda describes it as not being the ‘wildfire’ type feeling that came with kissing Jared, but instead a deeper and slower burning, ‘changing the very foundations of the world with its advance‘. Ugggggh. Not romantic, Meyer. Not after all that. And I’m NOT happy that things are changing in a way that’s positive for THIS relationship. Not at all.
Blah blah blah, extensive melodramatic descriptions of the changing and how Stryder’s body not loving Ian gets in the way, and then Wanda starts to cry again as she realizes that the kiss might be changing Ian too. She describes him as “this man who was kind enough to be a soul but strong as only a human could be“.
KIND ENOUGH TO BE A SOUL? Unless you want to go by MY definition of how fucking kind souls are, this is FUCKING HORRIBLE. By Meyer/the book’s definition, this is the WORST fucking thing she could have said, because after all of Ian’s abuse in this chapter, he’s made out to be extraordinarily kind!! HOW is Wanda this stupid? How can she just dismiss everything he’s just done, and how terrifying he’s been?? I thought since she was an alien, she should be all upset about anger and violence, so why didn’t THIS upset her more than anything? Ian should be the LAST person she thinks is kind or feels safe with by now!
Ian starts to kiss her tears away, telling her not to cry and that she’s staying with him, which leads her to go on about how she lived eight lives and never found anyone she’d follow when they left or stay on a planet for. She asks why it should be him that’s her ‘partner’ (wtf is with that choice of word?), especially because he’s not even the same species as she is, and he just responds that “it’s a strange universe“. Because, y’know, he really DOESN’T care about all her emotional bullshit, he just wants her to stay because he’s got no one else to fuck if she leaves, so whatever, it’s just a strange universe. Simple as that.
Wanda begins to whine about how unfair it is that she found love right when she had to leave, and why oh why did she have to love Stryder, because she still doesn’t fucking GET IT that she TOOK STRYDER’S BODY, so she SHOULD care about her, and it was unfair of her ever NOT to…and then whines more about how unfair it is that Ian should have to go through pain because of her.
“He deserved happiness if anyone did.”
*twitch* I….cannot address that. Not again. I need this chapter to end now. I can’t handle more than this. FUCKING END, CHAPTER.
Wanda tells Ian she loves him, and he tells her not to say that like she’s saying goodbye, but she feels she has to. This is supposed to be all emotional and sappy and make us feel our hearts swell and things, but how fucked up do you have to be to have that happen after what else happened in this chapter? I do NOT feel for them, aside from feeling like I wish they’d both fucking die in a fire, him because he is abusive and lacks self-control, and her because she is incredibly fucking stupid for reacting THIS way to what he’s done (among other things).
“‘I, the soul called Wanderer, love you, human Ian.‘”
I keep thinking I’ve found the stupidest line in the book, but then in the next chapter, there’s another that’s even worse. This is the winner for this chapter. Poorest fucking dialogue I have ever experienced.
She tells him her love for him will never change, no matter what she might become; that she will always love and remember him, and he will be her only partner. Uh huh. So that’s why you said Sunny wouldn’t love Kyle when she got to her new world. Because shit does not apply the same way to you as it does to anybody else. Fuck this shit.
“His arms stiffened, then constricted tighter around me, and I could feel the anger in them again. It was hard to breathe.”
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ONCE AGAIN, HE DOES THIS! And ONCE AGAIN, he will not have to deal with ANY repercussions for it! WHY DOES SHE KEEP ACTING LIKE THIS IS OKAY?????
He tells her she’s staying there, so she tries to say something, but he won’t let her. He tells her his decision that she’s staying isn’t just for her, it’s because she’s too important to everyone in the caves – even the ones who would never admit it – to leave, because they all need her. Because of that, he says she won’t be ‘kicked out’ of the ‘community’ without discussion.
Wanda argues that no one’s kicking her out, and he agrees, saying not even she is. He kisses her again, then CURLS HIS HAND INTO A FIST AROUND HER HAIR AND PULLS HER FACE TO HIS, then asks her if that was good or bad, like he did the first time he kissed her.
How does she respond? “Good“, of course! WHAT THE SWEET FUCK? There is NOTHING good about that! Nothing at all!! But he says that’s what he thought, because he was just trying to scare her into giving him the ‘right’ answer anyway, and this is more fucked up with every passing sentence!
He kisses her yet again, squeezing her so tightly she gets dizzy with lack of breath, but then loosens his grip and creepily whispers “Let’s go” into her ear. She asks where they’re going, and then seems to panic a little, repeating to herself how he is ‘her’ Ian, in a way that Jared will never be hers and her body can never be Ian’s. I don’t even know what the fuck this was all supposed to be for.
Ian tells her not to ‘give him any trouble‘ because he’s ‘half out of his mind’, and I do NOT know how anyone could ever at all interpret this as anything other than abusive and horrible. Once again, THIS IS NOT OKAY, and I am VERY uncomfortable with and upset by this. This book should not exist. This promotion of abuse should not exist. How are people not upset about this??
She asks again where they’re going as he pulls her to her feet, and he tells her they’re going to the game room, and that she’s going to wait there until he gets everyone else. Wanda is so fucking stupid that she can’t figure out why he’s FORCING her to go there, and MAKING DECISIONS FOR HER, so she starts to wonder if he wants her to play a game to ease the tension. But then, of course, he tells her he’s calling a tribunal, and the chapter ends with him telling her that she is GOING to abide by the tribunal’s decision.
It’s really fucking great when your ‘boyfriend’ tells you that you have ZERO free will; that you don’t get to make your own decisions about ANYTHING in your own life, and that you’re just going to go and do what he says to do and wait like a good little girl for other people to tell you what you can and cannot do with yourself. It’s especially great when he does so while trying to fucking scare and intimidate you, after being physically, verbally, mentally and emotionally abusive! Even BETTER when NO ONE has done anything to help you while he does ANY of that, and probably still won’t!
Do I expect Ian to EVER have to account for his actions here? FUCK NO! He’ll get exactly what he fucking wants, and Wanda will get NO say, because THAT’S APPARENTLY WHAT MEYER THINKS IS OKAY IN A RELATIONSHIP.
To Meyer, THIS is acceptable behaviour in a relationship.
Fuck, I am SO PISSED OFF about this! I need to stop now. Again, I apologize for freaking out about all this; I’m sure I didn’t seem much better than Ian here. But this topic has very significant personal meaning to me, and I am so absolutely far from okay with the way Meyer presented it that I can hardly stand it.
So now I’m going to go get my son, and let my mind focus on something GOOD in the world, instead of this. Because I swear to god, my son will NEVER treat ANYONE the way Ian treated Wanda here. If he ever did, he’d have me to answer to about that. Wish me luck on the next chapter, please. I’m pretty sure I’m gonna need it.
(See Mike’s take on this chapter at http://emptystress.wordpress.com!)